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I'm Not Wanted Here, I Have No Place (part 1 of 2)

I’m in a small lunch room with a bunch of my old classmates. I sit between Samantha and a few of her friends. The situation is awkward because I feel like I’m in the way of her talking to her friends with where I sit. She doesn’t want to be near me let alone talk to me, so I know that I’m a burden. I slip under the table and move to the other side, where there’s plenty of empty seats for me to be out of the way. Sam looks at me with confusion, so I explain that I didn’t want to be in her way. Her look softens into something akin to appreciation before focusing on her friends and easily ignoring me.
Even though I want nothing more than to be her friend again, I know that there’s no way of making that happen. She wants nothing to do with me, and even though it hurts, it’s best if I let her live her life without being a burden.
Still feeling to close to her, as though I’m eavesdropping, I stand up and look for another place to sit. There’s a table with very little people to the right side of the room, but Mary and Sam are about to sit there. The look at me uncomfortably when they see that I too planned on using that table, but I back away. I let them have the table kindly, and silently continue my search for an empty spot.
It seems I can’t find a single place to sit where I won’t be in someone’s way, or making at least one person uncomfortable.
I go to the front of this room where the kitchen is. Behind the counter is Mr. Carmen, serving food. There’s a bench to sit at this counter, which despite not really being there to be a seat, I use it. It’s the only place I have.
Mr. Carmen asks me if I’m alright, and I tell him that I’m fine. He eggs me to talk more in a very kind, caring, and sympathetic way. I tell him that I’m not wanted here, that I have no place. He gives me wonderful, sincere advice, including, “If you don’t feel that this is the right place for you, then perhaps moving on is best. Just because this isn’t where you belong, doesn’t mean you don’t belong anywhere.” I thank him whole-heartedly, finding much comfort in his words. [continued]

Relative to Real Life~
Day of April 24th, 2015 (part 1 of 2)
Real-life characters: Samantha, classmates, Mary, Mr. Carmen.
Dream-created characters: Filler classmates.
Real-life places: None.
Dream-created places: Lunch room, tables, counter, kitchen.
Different than real life: I haven’t been in this sort of a setting with Mary and Samantha in years, I haven’t spoken to either of them in years, I haven’t talked to Mr. Carmen since I graduated high school in 2011, Mr. Carmen was one of my favorite teachers but he never gave me life advice.
Reoccurring: No.
Precognitive: No experiences yet.

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