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"I did it for you," she says sternly.

I am in my high school, looking around nostalgically as it is the last day I will ever be in this place, surrounded by these people. In the lunch room, I see my old friend Mary hugging her boyfriend Cory, who was also one of my close friends. Mary's back's toward me, so she does not see my pained expression as I walk by. I was exiled from both of their friendships, which was devastating for me my senior year. Cory, being the kind person he is, tells Mary to say goodbye to me. Mary, unwillingly, walks over to me and holds out her hand for the handshake we made when we were just kids. My heart breaking, I manage to swallow my tears, smile, and hold out my hand as well. We do our handshake, others around watch, and she says "Goodbye," before walking back towards Cory by the door.
I feel like saying something. Something to stop her from leaving. Anything to get my friend back, but the words will not come. There are no words to say.
"I did it for you," she says sternly. She does not want me to think she was saying goodbye to me for her. She does not want me in her life at all anymore.
I choke back more tears before nodding. I already, deep down, knew that to be true. So, I turn away and leave my smiling, laughing, joyful friends as I feel my heart tighten.
I spend the rest of my dream looking for my belongings in the school, afraid I will leave them there before I'm expected to leave. [End]

Relative to Real Life~
Night of January 4th, 2013
Real-life characters: Mary, Cory, group of other classmates.
Dream-created characters: None.
Real-life places: School.
Dream-created places: None.
Different than real life: I am already out of high school. Mary did not, and honestly probably would not even with Cory's provocation, say goodbye to me.
Reasons:
Mary = To be honest, I've been feeling rather nostalgic of our friendship lately.
Precognitive: No experiences.
Reoccurring: No.

My analysis: To me, my mind is longing for my friendship. It is showing me the puzzle I am no longer a piece to. Then, by Mary saying and doing our old handshake, it symbolizes that I am trying to let go of the loneliness left in the wake of our long friendship. By me stalling, I know I'm not ready to let go yet. By Mary sternly saying the words to me, my mind is trying to communicate to me what I already deep down know: there's no getting that back. Spending the rest of the time searching around worried I'd leave something behind and not get it back, to me obviously symbolizes how I feel like I left part of me in that school, and how my life is a scary unknown know that I've graduated. I left my childhood memories, my certainties, all of my friendships, all of my sense of belonging, in those hallways and classrooms. That's what I was looking for in my dream, though in my subconscious, they were shaped like sweaters, notebooks, pens, etc.

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