Dreamcatcher: Hmmm

Hmmm

Well I've been getting a little bit of action in my dreams lately, which starkly contrasts my waking life. Twice in the last week. Not as good as waking life action but still quite lovely.

And an ex-lover popped into my dreams as well. Twice in the last week also. She is not the source of the action, at least not the character I was getting sexy with. I DO think she is popping into my dreams intentionally, checking in on me. She did look really good. The reason I'm not with her is she's past baby-making time, and I still might want to make one. Otherwise she's really awesome on all accounts.

And then there is this issue in my dream last night of not being able to talk. I have all these awkward moments with all sorts of people whereby I want to talk with them and end up wasting their time and barely rasping out a minimal phrase that hardly fits what I wanted to say. I get passed off as a drunk or an imbecile. Which sucks because I have all these lovely things to say to people and all these observations and insights and I like all these people... some were family, some were potential lovers, some just nice people, like cool dudes that warrant a good chin-wag.

In this particular dream last night I was at my Aunti Sandy's house, but I had all sorts of friends there, and friends of friends, like a really nice relaxing party, but I kept feeling horrible for taking over my Aunti's house. My Mother and multiple other Aunti's were there too. They were all being so accommodating. I was having a full-blown multi-day party with lots of lovely people for god sakes!! And I couldn't explain myself at all because of course I was not really able to speak. My Mom and the troupe of Aunties were all going out for a walk at one point, probably due to the music and rowdiness in the house and yard, and I confronted them happily but couldn't get a word out. They seemed to me to be thinking: "How does he have all these people around if he's so drunk he can't even speak?"

Now in waking life I have a stutter, so the feeling of "wasting people's time" and being labeled an idiot is not foreign to me. In fact I once got kicked out of a bar 30 seconds after walking in because I sounded too drunk when trying to order my first beer. I was entirely sober. But being a grown man now I have quite a handle on the whole thing. I still stutter sometimes, and it can still be awkward, but its nothing like when I was a kid. I got teased a lot, but I was also a pretty awesome kid so all my friends would stand up for me when they could. It seems that when I'm feeling self-actualized, confident and meditative I can talk anyway I like. So I still stutter, because often I feel small, but I can snap out of it.

Well thats about it I can remember from dreaming at the moment: the ex-lover visiting or checking in on me; the sexytime; and the stutter-type revisitation of old wounds. The strain of not being able to connect to people and wanting so badly to do so.

I think I might make a journal entry because I feel like writing more... feel free to have a boo

Mystics have always traditionally considered the feminine aspect of
the universe as a chest, a house or a wall, as well as an enclosed garden. Another
symbolic association is that which equates the house (and the above, related
forms) with the repository of all wisdom, that is, tradition itself (4). In architectural symbolism, on the other hand, the house carries not only an overall symbolism but also particular associations attached to each of its component parts.
Nevertheless, the house as a home arouses strong, spontaneous associations with
the human body and human thought (or life, in other words), as has been confirmed empirically by psychoanalysts. Ania Teillard explains this by pointing
out that, in dreams, we employ the image of the house as a representation of the
different layers of the psyche. The outside of the house signifies the outward
appearance of Man: his personality or his mask. The various floors are related to
the vertical and spatial symbols. The roof and upper floor correspond to the head
and the mind, as well as to the conscious exercise of self-control. Similarly, the
basement corresponds to the unconscious and the instincts (just as sewers do, in
symbols pertaining to the city). The kitchen, since this is where foodstuff is
transformed, sometimes signifies the place or the moment of psychic transmutation in the alchemical sense. The intercommunicating rooms speak for themselves. The stairs are the link between the various planes of the psyche, but their
particular significance depends upon whether they are seen as ascending or descending. Finally, there is, as we have said, the association of the house with the
human body, especially regarding its openings, as was well understood by
Artemidorus Daldianus (56).

Dream Moods

To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system. To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

To dream that you are cleaning your house, signifies your need to clear out your thoughts and get rid of old ways. You are seeking self-improvement.

If you live with others in your waking life, but dream that you are living alone, suggests that you need to take new steps toward independence. You need to accept responsibilities and be more self-reliant.

To see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. To dream that your house is damaged, indicates your waking concerns about the condition of your house.

To see a new house in your dream, indicates that you are entering into a new phase or new area in your life. You are becoming more emotionally mature. If you are locked out of the house, then it represents rejection and insecurity. You feel you are being left behind.

To dream that your house is broken into, suggests that you are feeling violated. It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied.

To dream of a haunted house, signifies unfinished emotional business, related to your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and feelings.

To dream that a house has disappeared, indicates that you are not feeling grounded. You feel uprooted by a particular circumstance or relationship in your life.

To dream that water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.

10,000 Dreams Interpreted

To dream of building a house, you will make wise changes in your present affairs.

To dream that you own an elegant house, denotes that you will soon leave your home for a better, and fortune will be kind to you.

Old and dilapidated houses, denote failure in business or any effort, and declining health.

Hyper Dictionary

Seeing a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system. Dreaming that you are cleaning your house means your need to clear out your thoughts and getting rid of old ways. You are seeking self-improvement. Seeing an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. Dreaming that your house is broken into, suggests that you are feeling violated. It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied. Dreaming of a haunted house means unfinished emotional business, related to your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and feelings. Dreaming that a house disappeared, indicates that you are not feeling grounded. You feel uprooted by a particular circumstance or relationship in your life.

Meaning of Dreams

It is common to dream about houses. They usually symbolise our emotional and psychological selves. All of your experiences, stages of development, and parts of your conscious and unconscious life may be represented by that house. The house may be representing issues concerning a particular dilemma in your life, or it may be more general and comprehensive. Either way, if you pay attention to the details in this dream, you may learn a thing or two about yourself.