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Body of Aries

12/09/12

I think I'm losing my mind. I'm seeing things that aren't there. Other people don't see them, like little creatures and what not, and strange unreal mystical things like doorways and other bizarre shit like that, I can see them but everyone else is trying to convince me they aren't there. I think I have schizophrenia. The problem with that theory is, I can 'interact' with the things I see and they can hurt and/or help me is so please, like they're not of this world but are in it none the less. Which leads me to question whether I really am crazy, or is it everyone else?...

We're at a gas station, my family I mean. It's me, my mom, dad and brother - I think. A family vacation. -My mom had handed me even more money than I got before a little earlier and I distinctly recall it was exactly 30 dollars. There was a 20 and a 10 dollar bill each (this is Canadian money BTW). We're planning on leaving. I'm eager to go I think. I love car rides, although it's a van we're driving in. But everybody has to go in the store real quick for some reason, I suppose it's to pay for the gas (if we even got any?) Then I see my cat Porsche outside. I open the door to let her in the van than quickly shut it. I think it's a little chilly out there. A couple problems though, how am I gonna warn the others not to let her out when they come back to the van. While in the meantime the doors aren't all shut tight as it is and I go around trying to shut the doors real quick (which takes a lot more force some of you might realize/not van owners) while trying to keep Porsche in the van. I managed to close a couple but I'm not sure if I felt the 'click', oh well - I can see Porsche's still under my seat. She's a feral so it's hard to keep her still.

I go to shut the door to my right and just barely manage to keep Porsche still in the van when I sort of unfocus or focus my eyes on the floor and notice a bug, can't tell what it is till it moves. It's a spider. Porsche goes to play with it then grabs it by the leg, gets it on her nose and tries to 'eat it'! *cute*

There's a sequence where I seem more like I'm watching somebody rather than being someone. It's some woman, I'm not sure if I ever see her front but she looks like Mary Tyler Morre to me. I'll just assume it's her. But there's also the distinction that she's supposed to be some sort of royal princess or queen. -She's taking the bus around town but she seems a little puzzled. When she said around town - she wasn't really expecting AROUND town. This bus seems to specialize in taking the longest routes possible. The bus goes all the way to the outskirts of the city before coming back in and reaching the passengers' destination. I see a coastal cliff, full with waves from the Ocean below, the bus hugging the curve close to the edge. The sun's going down.

Me and Austin, and probably everybody else but that's all I take notice of, are all glued to the television. Something has happened. The station is originally on some cartoons, I don't know what kind but I assume something like "Family Guy" or "Bob's Burgers". But there's a news bulletin - the broadcast gets interrupted. It's dark, I don't know why none of us get the idea to turn on the lights? The news that's coming over the airwaves is regarding some mass scale alien invasion. But it's not like anything you've seen on the Hollywood big screen. The reporters don't seem to have any of the information. From what we can tell this is all real but we're just not sure what 'it' is cause everything's in a frenzy and no information seems to be coming through. One network reports one thing another reports something else. Information just seems to be circulating through word of mouth but with no overt images or footage to present to the public - much unlike 9/11.

There's an episode of Tosh.0. Tosh is with a guest, and I'm not sure what they're doing. There's some conversation going on but I can't remember what was said. All I remember is them being on the surface of either the Moon or Mars. They're weightless and it adds to Tosh's comedy. He's jumping around like he's a grasshopper, it's all so trippy.

It's not just me. We're in the street and Lea and Chris are here too. I'm pretty sure Chris was here earlier but I don't remember much of his part. We're on the sidewalk and I guess I'm not the only one who's schizo. Everybody, there's a lot of people around, they all got helmets on. Different kinds of helmets. But Lea suddenly points out a dramatic change. The helmets, they change right before her eyes and she expresses this verbally, pointing it out to us and asking if we're seeing the same thing. Suddenly everybody's got the SAME kind of helmet on their heads. A football helmet, I don't remember anything more other than it's orange with a couple stripes. Then we discuss how her and - not ALL my friends - but her and Chris and maybe a couple others, we're all seeing the same things. Mystical images and creatures running around. Things that we just can't believe our eyes. But it's almost like we have to 'focus' something in our eyes or minds on order to see them? Are we all crazy?-

I'm in a hotel room or apartment complex. The lights are off but it's light enough to see like a Hollywood movie. There's a dark haired woman with me. In her 20s' with base in her voice and some sass. She's here as a skeptic. I don't know how I met here - but she's here to try and convince me I'm crazy. We're there to meet some guy. I don't recall who. Where is he? Nevermind...I 'found' him.

Like a focused movie image I can't look up or down I turn to look towards the bed and there he is. He's completely naked, lying on a bed mattress with no sheets. He's sitting up with his legs pointing to the side to the my left so we can't really 'see anything' in that department (catch my drift?) But his body is twisted so as to be facing us. The image I'll never be able to get out of my head. Speaking of heads - he hasn't got one! Instead of a head there a large crucifix sticking out his neck, so tall me and the girl can barely even see the horizontal part above. This crucifix is humongous. I remember there being circles all along the surface of the crucifix. I can't remember whether they light up or not. And the second the image comes into vision there's a music score that accompanies the picture. An organ note, though it could be a piano. It's like the sound one would make if they just brought their hand down on a bunch of keys at once and it's loud and made to represent strangeness and tension.

But wait, I don't think my companion can even see the naked guy. She's trying to get me to admit there's nothing there. Really getting demanding about it! It's all in my mind. I'm going crazy. What are you talking about, these things are 'here', I can touch, taste, smell, even...talk to these things!

I get freaked out and go to leave. The naked guy is coming toward me. He corners me up against the back of the door, I can't get it open. Now he's got a ram's head on top his shoulders. He's holding a crucifix and I can't recall if he strangles me or stabs me in the back with the crucifix. There's that organ note again.

This is bound to make a believer of the girl. She sees 'something's' attacking me and now I'm dead. The girl turns to run away but the naked guy attacks her from behind and impales her in the lower back with the crucifix and it comes out her stomach on the other side. It's so hard to explain. There's something 'artificial' about all this? It's like we're rehearsing a play. The objects don't even seem to be attached to the things they interact with. The large crucifix from early was actually placed BEHIND the headless naked guy but was aligned up with his neck so as to appear to be coming out. And the crucifix in the hands actually goes AROUND the girl and made to 'appear' as though impaling her through the abdomen. --But because we all BELIEVE the things we see they take on physical form and can harm us? I don't know how to better explain it than that. -Aside from that, everything I'm seeing here reminds me of imagery from Ken Russell's "Altered States". --The crucifix and thus the hole become real to the girl and she holds the blood in her hands as she dies. [END TRANSMISSION]

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