I had a strange dream last night in which my mind tumbled down a few unnecessary rabbit holes.
My car (Ivy) got fucked up while either I or Psy was driving it.
There was a chunk on the right side of the door of the trunk... That was totally missing. Like as if someone viciously carved out a piece of the corner and ran off with it.
But it was due to an accident of some kind.
Anyways,
it was raining and I was really stressed out about Ivy. All my gear was inside of it, and the longer I waited to fix it, the more soaking everything was going to be at the bottom.
It became some kind of a trek. I was on this mission to fix Ivy, and it started off as Arjuna and his brother being with me.
We went to a hardware store. It felt like Arjuna was my boyfriend, but not just any boyfriend, he was Graham. (the archetype).
Lazily he pulled up the car to a home hardware or something. We were supposed to grab a sealant, and something to fill the hole itself. Im not sure if we did.
I remember using some sort of tool to scoop water out of the trunk and empty it on the pavement. It just wouldnt stop raining. Day and night seemed to shift back and forth. I realized later my laptop was INSIDE the car, which I was grateful for.
Later on we went thru a drive thru to get a burger. Being nice, l let him take the first bite, and then anxiously waited while he passed it to his brother, then passed it back to Arjuna! I was a little frustrated at his lack of consideration towards me who bought the burger to share. I saw there was about two bites left, then freaked out at him.
Whats your problem man ?! I snatched the burger out of his hand. Don't you know how to treat a lady... and here I am trying to wear the pants.. get out of my car.
Arjuna lazily shrugged, all baked and such, and got out of the car and trotted away, giggling with his brother.
Suddenly my mind morphed to a new perspective and I realized Arjuna was never my man to begin with. I laughed at myself while driving Ivy, so hysterically that I hit a curb. I felt bad for calling him out like that and putting him on a pedastal. Thats probably why he was laughing at me. Hahah! How could I be so confused?
(you're dreaming... CLUE! hahaha.. but I am always oblivious of this when I dream. I am very impressionable)
Next. I am really turned on for some reason and need a fix. Perspective shift: I am Graham's "girlfriend" again (whatever that means... in this context.. not much). I had a place for the next month. A 2 bedroom all to myself. It was pretty rugged and ghetto looking but it was a place to go to. It kind of looked like a cabin actually, 70's style too. I saw Graham (longer hair, calgary styles) and I told him I'd be at the house waiting for him. He said alright, passively as usual.
I went to the house and set up a bit, made some food or something, cleaned up. I was starting to get impatient, and I looked out the window and instantly saw him walking past the house towards a bunch of people. Im the house wife dreaming of cumming... how pathetic. I was surprised at the synchronicity of the timing of me looking out the window and seeing him, and also felt terrible that he didn't give two shits about me. Then it hit me again. I needed a fix... cause I hadn't had any in a while... cause I havent seen..
Psy! Of course. How could I be so confused? That was when I realized I was dreaming. I missed him and thats why I was conjuring all these mixed up thoughts. I opened my eyes and the Sun pierced everything in the room. I felt glad but also bothered to wake up without him next to me. I rolled over a few times to try and entrance myself into a 5-D situation where I could be close to his essence. It didnt work but I eventually got out of bed feeling happy to be home soon.