There is this amber heart necklace that I've worn for, oh, say four years. I've had it for longer, but a friend popped it out of its setting and it took forever to find someone with the laser technology to fix it. Long story short, this necklace is very precious to me, and for fear of it getting lost or stolen, I tied it around my neck in such a way that I couldn't take it off. At least not until recently.
See, when I first got it, I was in a very base, survivalist frequency. Just getting through day to day without falling apart was a big success for me. i don't know if it has a connection or not, but when I experimented with meditation during this time, I would open my eyes and everything would be covered with a film or red coloration. I just assumed it was an afterimage from the blood in my eyelids or something. Having this necklace made me feel happy and more confident, and sort of acted like a charm.
Over the years, I've found a more secure place to be, and I'm not afraid of everything like I used to be. My progress has astounded my family, but recently I've been unusually bold. I'd speak up without actually thinking of the consequences, saying whatever came to mind. Over several instances of this, and a couple of harsh backlashes, I realized what I was doing. I thought about what could possibly be causing this abnormal behavior, and remembered what I'd learned about chakras and crystals.
This amber crystal that I'd been wearing day and night for the past four years is connected to the solar plexus chakra, which governs the ego, power, sense of accomplishment, and freedom. Makes sense if my amber heart had been boosting these qualities in me, but what if that chakra center was overloaded and overpowering my other centers? So, I decided to finally take it off and see if I felt any different.
The first thing that I noticed was... I guess it was a drop of light(?) or weight(?) in my solar plexus region, and I actually really felt where my heart was, or that there was something in my chest there that I hadn't noticed before. The next thing I noticed was how quiet everything seemed, like there had been something chattering in my ear and suddenly stopped. My thoughts were also clearer, they don't drift or suddenly collapse like they used to. And these were only the immediate effects.
Another thing that I noticed was that, the next time that I meditated, when I opened my eyes a film of green color covered everything. Before, after I'd stopped seeing the red film, the room always looked kind of orange or little, but I always thought that was just the artificial lighting. Now, I'm not so sure. Maybe it's an increase in vibration. I'll just have to see.
