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E-L-E-N-I-N.

Extinction-level-event-national-interests-notwithstanding.

Last night I discovered just what side of crazy we're looking at.

I'm going to go off the assumption that none of us are going to survive what is coming.

What memory did I seem to come across when processing through all the previous times this thing came and hung out with us?

At one point I think I was put to death in an attempt to "appease" this being they call Nibiru. More than once. I wasn't the only one. When we were more barbaric we thought killing ourselves would make it "go away". And of course, to our lame ass barbarian brains it would seem to work as eventually this object would move on in it's natural orbit around the Sun. I remember even meeting the consciousness of this huge Being and being put back to Earth with it saying something along the lines of... "Uh, no. I don't need you with me. You're Earth's kid." Before moving on. I remember it even communicating bewilderment at how an act of cruelty was somehow supposed to make it "happy".

I feel more than a little upset at the idea I've been a victim of such practices in earlier lives. Don't want revenge exactly but I do want to scream a big FUCK YOU!!! Sigh. Sad.

No wonder I thought people wanted to kill me in a group ritual of some sort. I had had that type of experience either forced or coerced upon me in the past when this object has visited us before. It's been locked in my cellular memory. Chiron in the 12 house. Now I understand. We're I've been victimized is in the past. In the 12 house. Makes so much more sense now.

I forgive whomever you were that did this to me. You thought you were doing what's right. Sheesh. Lame though. Hella lame. No wonder I have such a deep rage. Being used for something that wasn't even necessary. Ignorant humans. Lame.

As always with any of this past life stuff it becomes unbelievable to me AFTER I process it's discovery. Probably because I have no rational proof beyond a sense of these things coming from some deeply buried aspect of my personality.

Current fears are that the Earth will start spinning too fast as a result. Not likely, but really scared of that for some reason. A fear of losing stability or something. Losing a sense of gravity. Similar.

Why would they want to keep this a secret? The military is frightened that they will lose control of the population. Let me guess. They figure something along these lines... "Well, we can't exactly STOP it from happening so might as well have as little of chaos as possible until it's right in front of our face." I think this goes a bit beyond merely wanting to control spending habits, personally.

Okay. Let's turn on the optimism machine again.

We (my friends and family) are somehow special and get to survive and be happy. This is our time. Finally, after centuries of living out oppressed lives we finally get to be happy.

I'll just keep on working on my channeled stuff. Keep on blessing others with Reiki. Keep on doing my astrology. Things will all be okay. It's really not a psyop telling us it's a comet and not a brown dwarf star. Thankfully, it's just because I have this powerful imagination and everything is going to be just fine. Business as usual or if anything earthquakey does happen I and my loved ones are most definitely out of the line of fire. There's nothing to worry about. Brown dwarf stars just don't happen in real life.

Keep hope alive! Rise and hold fast your faith! You're dreams are coming true.

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