I’m overwhelmed
By the force of my emotions.
Ice water pours down my throat
Into my chest, and chills me.
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Beauty seems sweeter
Sunlight turns to honey drops of gold
Pure but faded
Light reminiscent of dark.
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I don’t want to be sad
This isn’t a call for pity
Or something I mean to dwell on
I just cannot block it out.
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Full of tears and thunderclouds
I try to see clearly
Though the ghosts of fallen raindrops
Drown me with silent intricacy.
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I want to burn brightly
But the fire is trapped inside my rib cage
Licking and tearing hotly
And I swear I am going mad.
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So much to do
Accomplishments on the horizon
Success and strength
But I’ve already lost.
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The desire to move forward
A call to live bravely
Motivates me to take action
Even as I fade.
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At least this last echo of me
Can make an imprint on the world
A desperate attempt to express
The chaos I harbor inside.
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Without drama or exaggeration
I can honestly say
That I am struggling
And my every breath
Is put toward salvaging this broken life of mine.
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Even as my dreams tempt me, drive me
Into a place unknown to me
Where perhaps I will fly
I feel myself weakening inwardly
The more impressive my actions
The less of me left to praise.
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Because this night is inside my soul
And no amount of love or joy
Will save me from its shades;
Its unconscious starlight.