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the last three weeks of my life have been a series of heart breaks and falling fast down windy vivid rabbit holes...
I keep the feeling alive in me that any moment i will wake up and my heart will lift high and dance again.
i gave my heart unknowingly to a man ... and still knowingly he obliged the offer.
deep inside i knew he didnt know what to do with it and tricky, my old illusion around love, someone should Take my heart make it more whole or keep me from the pain i have around past life patterns of isolation abandonment- on all on a pedestal.
well, this illusion is like ice. slowly with warming water melting the inside. i shook in a deep slow tectonic magma volt for a long time. and now i finally explode to depths so strange to my ears eyes and hands ... low and behold my heart remembers. my heart knows. my heart crept slow and waited until just now. like a leathery wintered flower blossom waiting for the spring suns to unfurl its kisses to meet the day ... so thank you. compassionate mortal man. for bringing my spring to the sun. thank you for receiving my love and letting me hold space for your healing even. i am grateful for having held the expectation for space to be held in a certain time line ... because now i know why i have ever wait for any man. my heart is open. now. i am.
ego dying hard n fast crashing into every illusion as it tumbles on its way deepening the vortex to the molten hot core of who I really Be.

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