This was a particularly scary dream.
I was inside an industrial place that was like our cities. Hubs of movement, action, no rest, everything must be in its right place or else it will be terminated and updated with a new program.
Like the Matrix, everyone was a program. There was no body connected to the person though, they were strictly a code made to perform certain tasks. I was inside this world and was noticing some oddities. The first time I noticed something *strange* I was in the food line, a belt which spewed out little cardboard boxes with compartmentalized food inside it. I saw a blip of a person-a young man- grab a few of these boxes and then disappear. He was like a "blip" because I could only see them out of the corner of my eye, not if I looked directly at them. Somehow they were a program, but not running like the rest of us. Living in the in-between of machine and pre-programed life. After that I had a hard time focusing on tasks, because I was seeing little incongruencies in the structure of life. People disappearing if they stopped doing their tasks.
Somehow I was found by one of the rookie programs that got "out". It was the same young man. He appeared in front of me and went down a long hallway. I followed him as he turned and cut through doors, following a shadow, until I got to the last door. This door wasn't supposed to be there, that much I could tell. It was round and shaped like a hatch on a submarine. I took a deep breath and went through it.
On the other side was a few bunks in a tiny room. There was a girl asleep on the one closest to the hatch that I had come through. I felt uncomfortably tired, so I laid down on the other one and fell asleep.
When I woke up the young man was asleep next to me, holding me gently in a loose cuddle. Without waking him, I studied his features. He was tall and gangly, long legs sprawled out next to mine, with a dirty-blond mess of hair. He looked like Nate (my little sister's boyfriend.) I laid back down and fell asleep again.
When I woke up the next time, the blonde guy was waking as well. I was confused, asking what time it was and if I was in trouble for not being on task-time. He laughed and told me that I had slipped out the cracks and was now a 'Out Kast', a delinquent program. He told me his name (it was Nate) and said that he was glad that I was the next to be set free.
Then he told me that I needed to learn how to manipulate the rules that kept the Workers from seeing me, and that I had better start now, because if I wasnt able to be "sideways" I would get caught and recycled by the police.
So begins my life on the run.
Learning to travel in the program junkmail and behind the machinery, life is an exciting adventure. Every day feels like it could be the last---but it is the first day I do what I want to, rather than following orders and making the Society run smoothly. To my surprise there are many who live here. They have passwords and secret places everywhere, Gate keepers and a whole society outside of the Programs.
One day I am walking through some of the loops when I come to a place that is like a bathroom (stalls, sinks ect) but there is a beautiful and sad girl program there , and an older woman with laughter in her eyes. There is a line of programs going into one of the stalls. Everyone tells the older woman a code, or a joke it seems, and pass one by one into the stall. I am curious, but cautious, trying to ask the ones in line what they are in line for. No one answers clearly, they all seem a little on the crazy side. Finally I am about to go to the Gate keeper but right then a Police man walks in to use the bathroom. We all go 'sideways' which means that we suddenly disappear into the cracks of the walls, and the only program in there is the sad girl. The Police uses one of the bathrooms and the sad girl asks him over and over why he cannot love her. I see that this is one of the safety programs to distract him so that we can slide away without being detected. The Police is distracted and asks her to walk with him a while, we all watch as he takes her to a balcony and tries to push her over. Thinking she is gone, he brushes his hands and walks away.
Eerie feelings sweep over us all as we relax back from being sideways. Having Police that close is really scary and I leave at once, no longer interested in the mystery behind the bathroom stall.
After seeing that, I am more cautious and afraid of the Police. I know that they can come into the In-between now, and that we are not safe anywhere.
But I have friends, and Nate to help me from getting caught.
Until one day, I am in the food dispensing area where I first saw Nate, getting food boxes for the Out Kast programs when I am Seen by one of the Police.
They track me for endless days as I try to go deeper and deeper into the Matrix. Until I am so lost and deep inside it that I have to become someone else entirely. Trying to stay in places crowded with running Programs with a veil of a fake identity, it is thin though and I know that if I am ever touched by one of the Police that they will Turn me into one of them. One day I am at a basketball game, I get a ride with a older guy who reminds me of my Dad in a prius. We are parked at a abandon hospital and I hope that we crash into the wall so that I can leave my illusion-body behind in death and they will stop searching for me. I try to communicate this to the guy driving but instead the car goes dead. A Police car drives by slowly. I am scared witless, knowing that my escape is dwindling away. There is a tiny moment when the Police car disappears and I open the door and lunge out of the car, just in time as the driver turns into a Police! I am running away, and not certain if I am still myself, because the guy grabbed my hand as he was Turning. I think, maybe this is it, and they got me, maybe I dont even exist anymore, when I see Nate standing outside the stadium with ME! I carefully dont look at myself and walk past. I hear Nate say to Me (who looks more like Shara, actually) that he thinks he just was a copy of me walk by. I am glad, they are safe, and whatever I am, I can go in peace.
I guess it ended there and I faded away into the many programs around me.
Woke up feeling like I couldn't move or I would be traced to Here.