Sometimes I wish I could just stay in my dreams forever. Just live my life dream after dream. I dont feel like being conscious and aware at times, life seems so hard... and living in a dream world would be easier.
Suicide has been on my mind a lot lately. Trying to solve my depression. Wishing my childhood was different. Wondering how my mother never really playing with me or letting me play with other children has and will effect me.
I know I have a lot to offer as a person. I have talents and aspirations. Im an artist, musician, I have a great mind, and a heart that has no bounds. No matter what I enjoy and am good at, or what I have to offer however is important to me right now.
I dont want to sit here and say, "I want to know what my purpose or calling is in life..."
I rather pose the question, "What is so great about life, that I should want to live it?"
We live in a world where people are hurt in so many different ways... everything you could imagine and more. Most the time, I feel like I cant relate to most of humanity.
Yes, there are new experiences in life in store for me.
And, In the end, when I die...
I hope my life is something I will have been glad to have lived.
But right now, I dont like life.
All things that flow and grow were regarded in early religions as a symbol
of life: fire represented the vital craving for nourishment, water was chosen for its
fertilizing powers, plants because of their verdure in spring-time. Now, all—or
very nearly all—symbols of life are also symbolic of death. Media vita in morte
sumus, observed the mediaeval monk, to which modern science has replied La vie
c’est la mort (Claude Bernard). Thus, fire is the destroyer, while water in its
various forms signifies dissolution, as suggested in the Psalms. In legend and
folklore, the Origin of life—or the source of the renewal of the life forces—takes
the form of caves and caverns where wondrous torrents and springs well up (38).
To feel depressed in your dream, refers to your inability to make connections. You are unable to see the causes of your problems and consequences of your decisions. People who are depressed in their waking life often have dreams about being depressed. Pay attention to what is depressing you in your dream and see how it relates to your waking life.
To feel depressed in your dream, refers to your inability to make connections. You are unable to see the causes of your problems and consequences of your decisions.
To dream that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your disappointments and just be happy. Try not to dwell on the negative. The dream may be a reflection of how you are feeling in your waking life.
Dreaming that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your disappointments and make yourself happy. Try not to dwell on the negative.
To commit suicide in a dream, foretells that misfortune will hang heavily over you.
To see or hear others committing this deed, foretells that the failure of others will affect your interests.
For a young woman to dream that her lover commits suicide, her disappointment by the faithlessness of her lover is accentuated.
To dream that you commit suicide, represents your desperate desire to escape from your waking life. You may be harboring feelings of guilt that you cannot get over and thus turning the aggression on yourself. You need to start approaching problems from a different angle. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life.
To see someone commit suicide in you dream, highlights your concerns for that person. Consider what characteristics and qualities in that person you may be trying to "kill" and annihilate in your own self. Perhaps you hope that you are not like this person and are making attempts to get rid of those traits within your own self.
Dreaming that you commit suicide indicates that conditions in your life is so frustrating that you are no longer willing to cope with a situation or relationship in the same way as you did in the past. Alternatively, you may be unable to overcome feelings of guilt and thus turning the aggression on yourself. On a more positive note, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself or character that your have been carrying around. Seeing someone commit suicide in you dream, highlights your concerns for that person. Also consider what characteristics and qualities in that person you may be trying to "kill" and annihilate in your own self. Perhaps you hope that you are not like that person in some way and are making attempts to get rid of those traits within your own self.
One would think that it signifies self-hatred, deep depression, giving up, and other such negative thoughts and feelings. At times this may be the interpretation and if this is so for you please confide in a friend or a loved one and seek professional help. However, there is a lighter and much more positive interpretation of this dream. It could suggest that the dreamer is making progress and is becoming a more integrated person. All of us have many aspects to our personality and our character, dreaming that you are committing suicide may be symbolic of you killing off one aspect of your self; possibly an aspect of your self that is hurtful. For example, if you were a smoker and you stopped smoking in your dream you may need to kill the smoker in yourself, if you see a stranger committing suicide that may represent another part of you. You may be getting rid of an unnecessary and useless part of yourself, and you may be starting a new and better way of doing things. If you see someone that you know committing suicide, the dream may be symbolic of your perceptions and concerns about that individual.
Symbolically, the world is the realm in which a state of existence is
unfolded (25), comprising many component parts adhering together. Used in the
plural, the term pertains, in a sense, to space-symbolism, but the ‘worlds’ are
really only different modes of the spirit (26). The explanation of the cosmic and
moral significance of the three worlds (the infernal, the terrestrial and the celestial) is to be sought in the symbolism of level. The inferior must not always be
equated with the subterranean, for, in megalithic cultures, the latter was usually
located high up, or in the hollow interior of mountains (conceived as the dwellingplace of the dead). Guénon has pointed out that references to the ‘subterranean
world’ are found in a large number of cultural traditions, in which the ‘cult of the
cavern’ or cave is linked with that of the ‘centre’. One must also bear in mind the
equation of the cavern with the cave of the heart, the latter being considered as the
Centre of being or the Egg of the World (28).
To dream that it is the end of the world, suggests that you are under a tremendous level of stress. You may be feeling vulnerable or helpless in some situation.
To dream that you are saving the world, signifies confidence in your abilities and belief in yourself. You have a positive perspective on life and in where you are headed. Don't let someone or something prevent you from progressing forward or question your abilities.
Dreaming that it is the end of the world, suggests that you are under a tremendous level of stress. You may be feeling vulnerable or helpless in some situation. Dreaming that you are saving the world means confidence in your abilities and belief in yourself. You do not let others question your intelligence or your abilities and generally have a good perspective on life and what your goals are. Don't let someone or something prevent you from progressing forward.
Planet: Saturn.
Positive associations with this tarot card:
fulfillment, completion, satisfaction, joy, wholeness, success.
Negative associations with this tarot card:
stagnation, lack of will, impatience, delays.
The World heralds the arrival of your heart's desire, whatever that may be, a time of achievement, recognition, success and triumph.
This card signals a time of enjoyment, of holidays and travel, time with loved ones, a fulfilling relationship is on offer and spoiling yourself with the material things you've been wanting.
The World also marks the end of one cycle and the beginning of another.
Negatively, The World points toward delays and that you may still need to overcome some challenges before you suceed, so don't give up so close to the finish line.
Don't be lacking in vision or feel insecure, success will soon be yours.
To question something in your dream, signifies self doubt. The ability to question things in your dream may also lead to higher knowledge and spiritual enlightenment.
To dream that someone is asking you a question, suggests that you have information or knowledge that needs to be shared.
To question the merits of a thing in your dreams, denotes that you will suspect some one whom you love of unfaithfulness, and you will fear for your speculations.
To ask a question, foretells that you will earnestly strive for truth and be successful.
If you are questioned, you will be unfairly dealt with.
To question something in your dream means your suspicions toward a love one. To ask a question in your dream, foretells that you will strive to attain the truth. To be questioned in a dream indicates that you will be unfairly dealt with.
To dream that you are hurt, signifies wounded emotions or feelings that you may have suppressed. You need to address these feelings in order to properly heal.
If you hurt a person in your dreams, you will do ugly work, revenging and injuring.
If you are hurt, you will have enemies who will overcome you.
To see people you know in your dream, signifies qualities and feelings of them that you desire for yourself. If these people are from your past, then the dream refers to your shadow and other unacknowledged aspects of yourself. It may represent a waking situation that is bringing out similar feelings from your past relationships.
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.
Seeing people you know in your dream means qualities and feelings of those people that you desire for yourself. Seeing people you don't know in your dream indicates hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront. Seeing people from your past in your dream, refers to your shadow and other unacknowledged aspects of yourself. It can represent a waking situation that is bringing out similar feelings as your past relationships.