first i made this dream journey that has been recurring for years it includes catching a ferrie from somewhere that looks sorta like north vancouver then ends up in a big old lodge off of a river. I have a companion with me and another person. The other person looks sort of like me but more scraggly, skinny and messed up. I realise over time that it is like me if I had fallen pray to all the mental illnesses and demons which Ive conquered over the past few years. What a sorry site. Worse then that as I sit with this person I sense more and more evil, at first brushing it off each time but then realising that this entity is not subject to these forces but is fully involved in them. Its interesting how these things work, at first I try to help explaining how to overcome these problems to the person, he nods like he gets it, but the insanity just keeps pouring out of him. So much so that I begin to identify with it, thats when I know Im in danger. I connect with cocopelli who hands me a staff from a higher realm I slam it into the ground like moses, all of the paracites flee from my aura. the creeper goes totally mad and chases us through the old lodge building. Me and my companion turn a few corners and I wake up. WTF!
I wake up in bed next to my lover, so relieved to be free from that phantasmagorum. Wow that was fucked up. Learned something though: Im quite far down the other fork in the path. I have overcome the psychic vampires, spiritual paracites and Maras which tormented me as I first opened myself up to the spiritual realm. Ive come so far. And today I am the result of my good action and not of my fear. I had to see an example of what my lost self would look like to know that I am fully found. I feel like Im passing the test, going through gateways into greater work for the light. I always knew this was my destiny but sometimes I thought that I would fail. I didn't, Im moving on.
