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Shaman Imposter- holding on to my power

I was in a house doing a session with my shaman friend. Only something was a little weird. It was this place where kids were getting high off of huffing gas and passing out. This girl was trying to convince me that I needed to huff this stuff as well.
I tried a little bit and then just kept breathing air as normal. I was laying on my yoga mat. I relaxed back and just started watching the rest of the people around me pass out. Then she yelled to the shaman and told him I was breathing in oxygen instead of the volatile chemical substance. He came out and got in my face. He told me to inhale it again and inhale more. I found myself holding my ground. "no i reserve the right to have my own free will in this matter. I will not take anything unnatural into my body." He sat back away from me and looked a little different. he looked dejected and not the bright beautiful devoted being I know him as in real life. He went on about how much this huffing substance has been helping him cope with his ailments. He felt sorry for himself. - Then It hit me! This is a dream and this is not my Shaman friend. In fact his personality is so far removed from him it was easy to tell and was THE trigger into lucidity. It could be a part of him or his past but it was literally something else that was working on a control level. I woke up shortly after this dream, and felt like it reflected some things in my present. Attachment and control energy.

Reflections from the dream.
This might reflect pieces of a person I have started to get really close to. It might reflect the pieces of ourselves that come out from a place of lack and control. Even further, This consciousness I was talking to (in the shaman) was a vampiric entity. It gives something only to take. Its good to watch when we become addicted to things including food, sex, drugs, tv shows ect. This reflects aspects of our own egos that can be reflected when we over indulge in something rather than working on what we identify as our purposeful work in life. I had a conversation a week ago with a friend on the phone telling her that I realized that talking on the phone was like my cigaret addiction. It is a distraction from looking at some emotional challenge and moving it. I recognize that yesterday I chose a couple of times to hang out with my new girlfriend instead of doing things that were calling me elsewhere. Good realization.

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Earlier on I had some fun kinda weird dreams. I remember being at a friends house where many friends from my "tribe" were playing their musical instruments on this gigantic balcony off a penthouse in NYC. They were all dancing and there was this hole in the center of the balcony about 10 feet in diameter. There was a bed a couple floors down that was meant to catch you if you fell. (weird)

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