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TRUST: The hope that stems from depression.

In a world full of distraction, fear and doubt, it can be difficult to focus on the present moment. We allow our minds to race to the past and then to the future, worrying about things that are completely out of our control. We use much of our precious energy to gain control of situations, not realizing that the laws of the universe are way too powerful for us to fight. So then we become depressed and give up.

Depression is a very interesting state of mind. We all will, and always will fall back into depression at various stages of our lives. We say to ourselves, "Why is this happening? I don't deserve this." Our perception of life becomes a narrow tunnel. We extrapolate from our environment and our mind, kind of like grapples, that can stop us from being sucked into the black hole.

I fell into this state many times within the last few weeks. As a result, my interest in meditation diminished. My energy was wasted in worry and doubt. My focus became grainy and hole-punched. Nothing seemed to give me happiness, even in situations when it should.

So then finally, when the tension was stifling, I turned to my meditation. My boyfriend told me to ask, "Who am I? Why am I here?" and inquire to the best of my ability.

Prior to my meditation, I read the Spiritual Teachings of Ramana Maharshi and read the chapter that explained how to inquire into the question Who am I? Within the text, Maharshi explains that one must sink to the bottom of the ocean (of consciousness) and grab the pearl that lies on the ocean floor (Self). He further explains that in order to do so, you must trust, no matter what thought may interrupt your concentration. Allow the thoughts to enter, allow the worries to come forth, because that is how those thoughts are destroyed. Inquire. Find the root. And then lay the burden on God and surrender to the present moment.

As explained earlier, we try to control things. We don't trust our present state of existence. We instead throw our energy into the future and think that only when that time comes, all will be well. The truth however is the exact opposite. To trust the present, means to be certain of the uncertainty. To be certain about uncertainty is to believe that all that you envision and dream is already here. Then we receive hope, that light that shines through the black sea of depression and doubt.

The trust allows the manifestation of your dreams to arrive quicker because you're allowing yourself to flow with existence. Life is all about flow. Give in.

Sure enough once I came to this realization, all became well, and very soon. My joy returned and I felt connected deeply to the universe. So the next time you find yourself in that black hole, TRUST. Surrender to what is happening in your life. Take those thoughts and push it to your Self. Who am I? Why am I here? Don't fight those energies and remember that this is all a dream.

I have attached an excellent article on ways to trust the universe. Give it a try ! Blessings to everyone and know that the light is always within you !

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