Last night I was at a huge house with Many friends from the Galactic Family and some others I know.. but in particular someone I can vaguely recall with very strong arms, that I was kissing repeatedly and it was very sensual and warm and felt very wonderful.. Then as I am outside I ran into a friend, AnTon and we hugged.. and this felt very warm for some reason also, though we do not particularly have a romantic connection, he was very warm and also had very strong arms and shoulders that I noticed.. we both sort of breathed together deeply with a simultaneous hum of affection, but I am thinking 'I respect Lauren a lot' who is his girlfriend, and I think this was communicated in some way.. there is something happening in the center of all this about woman and Asian healing modalities, although it played a small role in this dream sequence.. then outside further I ran into Mikal Baker and we were talking for a bit then was giving me a chakra massage.. recall we were standing there by a square pillar under the patio area outside somewhere as he then analyzed the energy in my chakra points that was detected, very doctoral like.. He paused then stated 'KimberlyAnne.. there is a lot of pain, specifically abuse in your past that is still lodged back there, I think we really need to help you!' and called one of his friends over to assist in some planning of some sort in this regard..? He seemed really concerned and I recall feeling a bit exposed but very grateful and sort of relieved.. it was interesting, a bit personal for me too but I haven't vividly seen may dreams for a while.. This is shifting now though, as I am seeing for the last few nights but this dream left a certain resonant feeling in recognizing male aspects that I am reflecting on at this time:
Strength
Warmth
Enveloping Embrace
Integrity
Respect
Trust.. as all the males that appeared I notice I have particular respect for and the interactions were very warm and so fascinating that the dream in the male regard started out very physical and sensual and fully expressive, then gradually shifted through as I came across the next male whom is related as a friend but can feel a certain amount of mutual attraction and the next male it felt like I was in a vulnerable position but felt a lot of trust in that space where as in physicality I normally do not really allow for touch as much as I wish to be able to, as there is also the fear of abandonment.. So I think feeling safe is something I deeply yearn for most of the time in my interactions as I need to know where people are coming from or I get really nervous.. But even when I trust someone there are questions that some up for me.. and I have Intentionally made strong decisions early on, not to allow that pains of my past to affect the beauty of my future.. but then there are emotions which spontaneously seem to arise from somewhere that someone may try to hurt me, which then scares me and then makes me feel embarrassed about my weakness in this regard, which then angers me and makes me feel dis-empowered in my own expression, which then makes me really sad and feel alone creating awkward energy that I do not want to be touched, then feel like people are repelled by me, which I have tended to take personal as this complex and Anciently rooted cycle I am overcoming..

This dream seemed to represent these powerful aspects I am searching for within and I know I will experience as a physical manifestation of this incarnations greatest joy unfolding into the ecstatic Being that I am Eternally.. I suppose I have All~ways yearned for this perfect archetype of a Big- Strong- Protective- Honorable- Ecstatically Sensual- King essence, BEing as the inherent Reflection..