This particular story is intense for me and begins with a perfect snapshot of a poignant moment in time that I would never forget.. My Aunt Kathy lived out in Joshua Tree near my Nana and Pops who I loved visiting because the mountain valleys out near Joshua Tree had a distinct feeling for me especially near where the solar field wind mills and oil drilling 'monsters' that scared my brother once making him cry sometimes as we would pass over the valley, where they also had a triple trailer home there that smelled sweet like Nana who was like my favorite person in the world.. I loved to imagine many wondrous things driving throughout those valleys, so it makes sense to find out it was previously indigenous lands and why the certain feeling of sadness regarding passing the wind mills.... Kathy was amazing with this poignant flair of warm swagger to her Nature, visiting her was a very welcome and rare occasion so this visit was already immensely important..

This space of hers was 'Home of the Hawk' from my perspective, as my aunt was known to rescue and raise Hawks[among Many other animals! but she ended up in the news paper for this and I always felt proud about that..] where our only other visit previously left me feeling immensely protected when, in a powerful moment of recognition, I was looked Deep INTO as my mother was over there cooing at him with cage opened, looked over asked me 'is it ok if I do it?' then back at her and bit her right in the face, leaving her face full of blood and he said calmly 'That was for You..' which left me simultaneously with both the feeling of Respectful Honor and being slightly Horrified, but I knew why he did it and that was all that mattered.. regardless, this time we came waking up and my cousins were playing outside, this snapshot in time I would never forget..

My cousins and a couple friends had build a [Scooter Spaceship] with a cardboard box affixed around the handlebars and I was Super jazzed about it.. it was such a classic 80's beautiful California golden sunshine kind of day and this thing was Amazing! Plus these kids were older than us, and Nice to us which was really impressive, as we were typically used to the city jerks that yearn to find something to pick in you about or some other juvenile garbage, so these were obviously respectful kids with something better to do.. I saw this thing like it was the most amazing creation I ever saw, and I could see my older brother keeping his cool in rare form.. I didnt care, I just wanted to See this thing and my cousin Larry and Daniel were like 'Sure! you want to check it out?' I crawl up inside this thing.. I know they had hooked lights and a tape player to it some how creating sounds of sorts and a video screen and all these Lights moving in sync, but I was Beyond Impressed as it felt like it was REAL.. Now, I didnt realize it quite then either, but Something HAPPENED to me when I went into this, that I could never previously depict in words, but as I went up into this spaceship.. I can only describe now that I was quickly ripped out the top and dragged through this vortex with THOTH who was relating to me about my prior agreement to utilize this portal regarding the solidification of Karmic Patterns, and was zipped though all these downloads of ancient memories and then told basically 'sorry this will be painful for you, but it was the only time we had to do this as you requested', I felt so far away from my body suddenly and I felt an intense tug but a slow, static reentering into my physical form..

I faintly recalled someone mumbling outside, stating something about my taking a while and being fair to others or something.. with that massively impressive niceness again, yet almost nagging me this time as I couldn't bring myself to exit yet, because something was happening to me that I didnt understand, and it was INTENSE.. when I finally felt confident enough to rise after catching my breath a bit, I began to exit.. Right as I was crawling out, my body suddenly felt sooo tired, my cousins were talking with my brothers, and I could barely stand up feeling really dizzy and needing to lie down immediately.. this sort of thing Never happened to me as I was Always the one savoring Every second I could with others as I felt secluded and sheltered from a reclusive environment to say the least, but even when I spent the night places I was the last one to fall asleep and the first one to rise Eyeing Every meticulous Detail of any accumulative developments underway..

My cousins seemed to notice my sudden tiredness and escorted me to the house, but I could tell they were as baffled as I was.. still entering my body from behind, I could see their facial expressions of concern which embarrassed me profusely, but I really didnt have time for that then.. I was brought to a room and laid down in my aunt Kathy's bed, someone opening a window.. I recalled the famous 'Kathy Decor' of her matching sewn curtains bed spread pillow cases and photo albums which I felt nostalgic about even then..

I went into an Extremely Deep sleep like a Sleep of Ages crawling through time.. but then I entered a vortex of something Frightening and Traumatic had a hold on me.. I was in too deep a sleep to wake myself and something torturous was happening to me.. I was crying out in my sleep, desperate for someone to come near so they could help me I felt trapped but was aware of my physical body like hovering over myself and was aware of what was happening, but could only communicate though this sleeping vessel.. I saw my cousin Larry so I called to him psychically to help me and he seemed to take notice with immediate concern and came near.. he came over trying to listen to what I was saying and then walked around to put his hand on my back.. I instantly felt soothed with warmth while something released its violent grip on my being.. I fell back into a peaceful sleep feeling warm, safe and grateful for his very necessary assistance.. he was in the process of getting ready to go out with friends, so I remember him walking around and using the bathroom to brush his teeth and I recalled catching his eye, giving him a purposeful smile to thank him which he received and smiled back, and I recall his very friendly jovial energy that I really liked in this beautiful moment.. Plus, I appreciated this connection for his acute awareness and being there in that moment I needed someone to be there which is very Rare so worth Mention of Honor and Gratitude.. There is a bit more to this story that will be revealed in time~ Em Hotep!! ~♥ ☥ ♥~