I truly do not know what to think.
I feel as though I'm learning so much yet I tread this... terribly unstable ground.
As a student... I have an innate desire to pursue what is just and right. But at times I may loose sight of what that actually is... for it could be possible that this opportunity arose for a reason.
Sometimes all I want--desperately with all of my being...is to escape---to dwell a mist a dreamland for the rest of my days.. forever and until eternity.
I don't talk much.
And I don't really act on what I want.
I am very cautious and I deny the fundamental parts of my being--quite often.
I will never admit my true feelings.
But tonight I came dangerously close to breaking through the surface. It inspired me--the dedication to euphoria and pleasure... in an inconceivable way--I knew I agreed.
I am slightly different however.
Everything that was said is truth.
I just don't have the guts to say it yet.
Why is this curiosity so damn nagging???
It's weight on my skull is crushing
My hands itch to touch yours.