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Inner Conflicts

I had a pretty brutal dream. It's interesting because I fell asleep thinking about how further I could pursue my initiation. I have a general idea of what to do next but not entirely. If I had any doubts before, I don't anymore.

The dream was in fragments, the first I remember was Hector and two other people (a guy and a girl) were in my room. The guy was Hector's friend who introduced us. And the girl was someone I didn't know. Suddenly the girl suggests that her and my boyfriend go to the bathroom together. I was shocked by this notion and even more shocked that my boyfriend actually agreed. I was so pissed.

Awhile later, after they both leave Hector and I are talking and he brings up sex, and how we hadn't had any "good" sex in a while. I look at him stunned, because why would he expect that or say that if he wasn't interested in someone else? Instead of deeming him with a response, I retreat to the other bathroom refusing to talk about it out of insult.

While I'm in there I hear some crazy commotion occurring outside in the living room. It sounded like two people were fighting but I couldn't be sure. So I go outside to look and to my surprise my brother, the one whose imprisoned is there sitting on the couch trying to catch his breath. My brothers friend from childhood, is standing there naked in the living room. I try to ask them what happened but my brother couldn't even form a coherent thought so I go look for Hector. I find him in the bathroom, cooling off. It was clear that him and my brother had just been fighting. I look for any visible signs of injury but find none.

The last fragment of the dream was different, I was in another world, another place. It was dark, there was something I had to do--some coherent plot that unfolded only in my head. I was jumping around in other peoples backyards. Like most of these escapades, this place was dark and obscure. I go here, or places like this, far too often in my dreams. Strange places that I can't describe, things I have to do.

My conclusions: I don't think the characters in the dream had anything to do with the people in real life. They are all aspects of myself that are in conflict. This is fairly easy to grasp since I was specifically thinking about what I should do next to improve my being. My brother signifies some rather addictive, compulsive qualities in myself that I'd rather not acknowledge. He's the perfect example to dream about to get me to change because I hate him and the part he played was crucial. I can't do anything unless I kick a few bad habits.

As for Hector, him and I are very much alike... in many ways. He signifies the part in me that desires to overcome, the part that is different. And the reason he was fighting with my brother is literally because the habits I currently have are hindering my progress as an individual and they are battling against each other for supremacy.

I know what my first action to improving myself is.
Now, I must execute.

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