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Inspiration is the Most High!...

When I was 15 years old, I used to spend long hours on the phone - cord stretched across the dining room - to my roost at the computer. My best friend, Miranda, and I would conjure stories together, dreaming into each others' ears and riffing on fresh ideas to come up with compelling plot arcs.
Over the years, I lost touch with Miranda, but the stories continued to grow in my imagination. Mostly inspired by dreams I'd have, I would craft short stories that eventually weaved in with our original concepts. To date, I have been writing this story for 15 years and as of yesterday, I have a nearly-completed first draft.
I see it as a movie in my mind. As such, I went to school in 2005, to study art so that I could turn my story into a graphic novel. I still dream of such a thing, but the undertaking would consume a massive amount of energy and time and I'm not sure my abilities would come together to create the elaborate art work that I have in my mind. Previous to that, I'd gone to school in 2001, to study screen-writing and film making. I soon learned that despite my passion, that was not my field either.
For years I've struggled with this story, turning it over and over in my mind. I'm not great with plot arcs or dialogue. I'm not very good at action or suspense either. But I feel it inside me. The protagonist is me and her story is my own, and so I cannot abandon it entirely. I feel that if I could at least cull together a completed rough draft, something restless inside me would settle.
Two days ago, armed with coffee and unbound energy from being trapped inside all week, I sat down at the computer, switched on my soundtrack, and began writing again. For the first time since the beginning of this project, it flowed. All of my unknowns; all of my blockages; all of the areas that had previously remained in the shadows were illuminated in my mind and I saw the story in full. The symbolism came; the action came; the dialogue came. I was beside myself and I focused - not on congratulating myself for overcoming this hurdle, but for staying in the story, staying with the characters, feeling their emotions and their plight. It was like working with a new brain! I channeled for 2 days straight and have woken today, on the 3rd day to find that it's still with me.
I am feeling so great about this new year. 4 days in and my life is already turning around in many wonderful ways. I am more challenged than ever - but this is setting the stage for me to try harder than ever... and succeed! I hope everyone is also finding this great strength in their lives, and that together, we can use this year to accomplish those things we've always dreamed and never done.

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