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Jealousy while He Heals Another...

Woke up a few times during the night, wanting to write down the intensely visual and vivid dreams I was having... but too tired to scare up a pen and paper.
My last dream before waking had me hanging out with Daniel and Sumandhi. Rick was there too, as well as Anthony, perhaps? It was really late at night. I was exhausted. I wanted nothing more than to go home and sleep, but Sumandhi was going through an intense phase and needed Daniel's support to make it through. I wanted to respect this, so I didn't tell him how badly I wanted to leave. I just tried to distract myself by hanging out and finding interesting pens. I would have drawn to distract myself, but as the dream would have it, I had tons of really cool pens and no paper.
Dan came out of the room at one point. He was dressed strange, like bondage gear? He was glowing and appeared to be enjoying himself. He wanted to make sure that I was okay with us staying. But it seemed more like he wanted to find out if I would be sticking around or if I was going to try and take a bus home, since he was planning on being there a while.
Without explaining the situation to me, I knew that he was playing some games with Sumi to try and calm her down or scratch an itch or whatever it was they were doing. In a moment of nobility, I told Dan that I knew he was a healer and I trusted him and I gave him full permission to do whatever he needed to do to help her.
Maybe it was Rick, but someone had gone into the bedroom and was shouting, "That's good cause I see a pussy! She's naked from the waist down!"
Dan said, "Well, yeah, that's part of the healing." I didn't protest, I'd just given him full permission. But something didn't feel good about it. Before I could explain my situation, Dan danced off, back to the bedroom and I was left to fend for myself. I stuck around for a while, but I was getting impatient and tired. I wanted to be able to talk with Dan and tell him how I was feeling, but I didn't want to interrupt whatever was going on in there. I wanted to feel that I was trusting and not paranoid.
But as the night wore on, I became more and more jealous. I guess not even about the potential for sexuality playing into their games, but because I wasn't feeling well but Dan was helping someone else who needed healing.
At some point the dream switched to a large hall (a bit like the Palmer House in Chicago). We were at a wedding. The table was huge and all the guests were seated and about to enjoy a meal. I had been searching for Dan the whole time we were at the wedding. He was nowhere to be found. I asked his friends and family and no one had a clue and no one seemed to care. At one point I got up and wandered around a little bit, to see if I could find him. Then I saw some people coming in at the far end of the hall. They had been out on a balcony, smoking. Sure enough, Dan was with them... But instead of it being Dan, it was Fritz. I could tell by the body type and posture and also the grey and white camouflage cargo pants he was wearing. He had a large gas mask on, over his face and rather than come to the wedding, he wandered around the upper level that was filled with stores, like a mall. I tried to ignore it, I didn't want it to ruin my fun at the wedding. But when he finally did come back to the table, (it was Dan again) he was seated far away from me, close to the bride and groom (Sumandhi and Anthony) and was fully absorbed in the conversation going on there. He didn't try to acknowledge me or find out where I was seated. What a shitty feeling.
Coming out of the dream, I'm glad to reflect and know that it was just silly fears expressing themselves through my subconscious. The one time I ever felt that way with Dan was when we were in Chicago for Lisa's wedding. He was so excited to see old friends, and the alcohol was flowing. He spent a fair amount of time surrounded by other beautiful women, and then went out after to do more drinking and hanging out while I went back to the hotel and put Keira to bed. That's pretty much the only time I've ever felt serious jealousy with him.

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