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Stress Fragments...

Fragments of a dream, based in frustration, tension, and challenge... but all with a light twist.
I was in my high school, top floor. I was practicing handstands, walking up stairs on my hands. It seemed pretty effortless and natural to me. When I got to the top floor, I was practicing against the wall. I was doing really well at keeping myself up, but as I stayed in that position, I started noticing that the floor beneath me was dirt and a hole was appearing that was getting deeper and deeper each time I looked at it. I started to realize the precariousness of the situation, and found myself doubtful that I'd be able to maintain my stability over the growing chasm.
Later, I remember a snippet where I entered a room. I was searching for a light switch and found it on the wall, but it wasn't a normal light switch. It was my cat, Bisou's head. She wasn't dead, but the head was definitely without a body. I wasn't sure how it worked and I remember really fidgeting with it to figure out how it was supposed to turn the light on.
Also in this dream, I wound up stepping out of a tent in my underwear, only to be greeted by an old friend, Paul J. In real life, he's one of the most judgmental and inflexible people I've ever known. I hesitated for a moment, expecting a barrage of insults. But then I gathered myself and thought, "I don't care what he thinks." He said Hello and there was no judgment or awkwardness in the interaction at all. Despite me standing there in my underwear, he made no remarks or even allusions to the fact. It felt good.
In another part of the dream, I was rolling a joint at my desk, of the job I just ended. There were crumbs all over the desk and customers in the store but I didn't care. I just kept on doing what I was doing, paying no mind. I think maybe my boss came in, but again, I was so absorbed in what I was doing, I didn't care how she felt about it.
The last thing I remember from the dream was the horrible feeling of having my jaw so tense and tight that I'm scared I'm going to break my teeth from the pressure.
I berate myself in the dream for drinking too much coffee, noting that this happens whenever I do that. My jaw hurts from the tension but I don't know how to relieve it. I can feel my teeth gritting together. I think that maybe if I can only clench harder, maybe my muscles will exhaust and then release. I try it, biting down even harder on my sore, fragile teeth. It scares me and feels awful. And it doesn't work. I feel like my mouth will forever be clenched shut in an inexhaustible vice. I have to wake myself up to get out of the dream. I didn't realize it at the time, but the next morning, my jaw was definitely sore. I think maybe I was actually clenching/grinding in my sleep. I must be nervous about going out of town this weekend.

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