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I can't do anything right, but he's still smiling...

Dream in pieces now. Remember the emotions most.
I couldn't seem to do anything right.
I was in line at a bakery (Macrina?) at 6am, ogling the cinnamon rolls. For whatever reason, I didn't purchase one. Then I was out of line and distracted by something I don't remember. Then I was back in line, only to discover the rolls were sold out.
I made a stink about it but the best they could do was to pull out some old stale crusty roll from a pile of junk. I was insulted.
My frustration from this single incident lingered through the entirety of the dream, seemingly infusing every interaction and venture.
I was going to be part of a wedding. Lots of friends were there, also taking part. I was having trouble with so many things... getting the right outfit, getting my hair right, getting the corsage figured out. Even before that, I was having difficulty setting up my sleeping bag. Every time I got myself settled, someone would point out that I was blocking a pathway or had taken someone else's spot. Then the food thing was a frustrating struggle. I had brought left-overs, and stashed them in a fridge somewhere. But now I couldn't remember where that was. When I found some food I thought was mine and started eating it, someone got mad at me.
I decided to take a swim because I was killing time before the wedding. But getting out of my clothes was extremely difficult. I knew I had a bathing suit underneath, but when I tried to take my clothes off I would end up exposing myself somehow and people would either laugh or give me attention I didn't want. Especially because of my hidden tattoos.
Our new roommate-to-be, Matt, was in my dream. He had been there since I closed my eyes - a ghostly shadow smiling at me throughout the entirety of this dream-spell. We spent a fair amount of the evening together last night, during which we had some beautiful interactions. When I hugged him goodnight, he whispered in my ear some magical and uplifting words.
In the dream, we had a mutual crush. But it seemed as if we each had belts around our waists that capped the ends of a large 2x4. Though we were always together in the dream, orbiting one another, we couldn't get closer than this imaginary distance. We didn't interact so much, aside from the feeling that he was looking at me with his enlightened smile and it warmed me heart. I remember only one point, being in close-enough proximity to share a bowl of hash.
When the wedding came, I was a mess. I was being handed my corsage and told to cue up for the march before I even knew what I was wearing or what I was doing with my hair. When I fixed my hair, someone scolded me and said I couldn't do it that way. It also seemed that others around me were having difficulty doing things right. Someone was trying to land a helicopter on the roof and they crashed it.
The rest is all a jumble of feeling - I feel inadequate and clumsy. I feel lost and useless. At the same time, I feel loved and desired.

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