I napped today for a long while and had very active and intense dreams. The first dream I had I was roaming through a beautiful meadow in the mountains. There was an abundance of tall thick grass and wild flowers. I am feeling very at ease and peaceful. Then a girl I know appears in the distance. She and I have shared some really bizarre energy recently and about a week ago I had an extremely dark dream in which she was haunting me. That dream has been lingering with me and I have felt very uneasy about it all week. When I saw her in the distance I immediately felt like I had to protect myself. I got down on the ground and hid in the grass. I felt myself turning into an animal. I turned into a hedgehog/porcupine type creature. At this point the girl is running after me she is very aggressive and is yelling at me, I run with my little rodent legs as fast as I can. I am finding small places in the earth to hide in and am puffing up into a ball of quills and am really feeling the medicine of the animal. She is furious and shouting at me. I decided to emerge from my hiding place. I scamper out and stare at her. I telepathically communicate to her to back off and that if she came after me like she did in the dream last week that she would feel the defense medicine of hedgehog.
Then I have a false awakening. I wake into another dream in my house to the sound of Osean coming home. I tell him about the dream I just had. He tells me it sounds like one I should log on dreamcatcher. I immediately go to the computer and start logging it. The computer screen is all hazy and I can't make out what I am typing. I become semi-lucid and think "I must still be dreaming".
I then find myself walking to my Qigong/Tai Chi teacher's house. I am no longer lucid. I arrive and go inside. I find a room full of beautiful people including Kaewyn, Jasum, and Squirt. I don't see Jori, my teacher, but feel his presence very strongly. I sit with them and they are about to partake in an ayahuasca ceremony. They ask me to join them and I do. I don't remember ingesting the medicine but I immediately feel it in my body. I start remembering the hedgehog dream and feel how the experience kind of ejected me from my body. Taking on the form of another creature really sent my astral body way out there. I am calling upon my astral self and trying to get it to reunite with my body again. By this point I am very altered by the medicine. Jasum and Squirt notice that I am really ungrounded and are trying to help me pull my spirit back into my body. I am lying in a bed and they are taking turns lying on top of me. They would lay on top of me and totally relax trying to put as much "dead" weight on me as possible. This was really helping me ground down and feel my body. After a few rounds of them alternating with this grounding exercise I am finally feeling stable. Kaewyn comes into the room at this point and Jasum and Squirt leave. Kaewyn sits in the corner across from me and I sit up to face her. She is sending me amazing healing energy and we are telepathically communicating. We are having profound understandings of each other and she is seeing that I am in serious need of some positive divine feminine energy. She starts channeling the most pure feminine energy and I am basking in it. It is sooooooo healing and she is beaming! Then she starts morphing and turns into a very beautiful dark skinned tribal woman. Kaewyn is gone and the woman sitting before me lets me know that she is the grandmother spirit of ayahuasca. She is amazing and is in complete control and awareness of her energy. She is a wonderful healer and caretaker. She sits there silently holding space for me. I emotionally expose myself to her. Letting her see all of my vulnerabilities and all of my strength. I am so comforted by her and truly LOVE her. She gazes deep into me and holds all of what I just released to her so elegantly. Jasum and Squirt come back and are super excited about the sun set and want us to come see it. We get up from the bed and walk down a hallway. I have the thought that I really want to share my artwork with this beautiful Ayahuasca spirit. She stops in front of a door in the hall and asks me what I am doing I tell her that I want to go get some of my art and show her it. She nods at me in approval but then opens the door and enters the room and closes the door behind her, as if to say our time together is up for now but we will meet again.....
Side note..... I did some research on the medicine of hedgehog. This is what I found: Hedgehog’s message is the ability to defend itself against attack. If you have this animal’s medicine you have the ability to defend yourself against negativity. Perhaps you need to keep away from people that continually attack you with words of criticism. Do not accept verbal or physical abuse. Learn how to respond in a threatening situation. Do a full moon meditation and call upon the wisdom of the Grandmothers for guidance and instruction. Ask your female ancestor’s for assistance and blessings. Do a self-blessing ritual using special anointing oils for your empowerment and healing.
--- I find it very interesting that it says to call upon the grandmothers for guidance and to ask the female ancestors for blessings..... It seems my soul did this almost immediately after the attack in the first dream. oooh and the full moon is very near, how synchronistic!