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I force myself awake out of many dreams. It's a skill I developed a long time ago as a child after a series of night terrors. My dreams are too bizarre. They're rarely enjoyable, but always interesting. They're always too alien. Nothing I'm doing in my dreams makes any sense. I never fly. I definitely don't soar through space.

Sometimes I become aware that I am dreaming. It can be because I'm very scared and want to escape, or because things have gone on for too long and are getting too strange. So, for whatever reason, I start to realize it is a dream and attempt to wake up. It's sort of like becoming aware of yourself again and realizing you have control over what is happening. I attempt to open my eyes. It's a very strange sensation. Like a pressure on my eyes, but they're my dream eyes. The pressure comes from my dream self's eyes at first, not my own physical eyes. Keeping your eyelids closed while forcing your eyes to look up as hard as they can is about how it feels. This eventually gets me out of the dream, but only halfway.

I'm stuck in blackness, and have to fight the rest of the way out of the dream. I always succeed. The pressure has now moved out of the dream's abstract space and into my own, physical eyes. This isn't a scary or strange process, but at this point I feel encouraged that I am succeeding in leaving the dream and try very hard. My perception of time, I believe, has returned to normal around now. I've only once been stuck in this black state for what I perceived as 5 seconds. I am generally awake very soon once I get to this step. The blackness is interesting. I can't describe the transition from the pictures/sounds of the dream to blackness. It just happens. I suppose it occurs while my perception of time is still altered, so it may take a long time, or it may happen very quickly. I've never thought about this before. There is no gradual fade, although sometimes I do say bye to whatever I was interacting with in the dream first.

Once I actually open my eyes, I spend 10 minutes or so recovering from how the dream made me feel. Rules in the dream still loosely apply. If I was constructing an object in the dream that served some function, I may still look for that object after waking up. I switch in and out of the incredibly altered thinking in the dream and normal thinking.

I don't know why I try to leave my dreams so often.

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