i've had fever since the past few days so i'm stranded at my parents place for a while. Leaving tomorrow for the western part of the country to work on a documentary about displacement of fisherman due to emergence of MNC's. Havent worked on a docu in a while so a little anxious plus a little physically weak so not sure whats going to happen. All this anxiety and fever has made me sleepless and given me strange visions when i do sleep.
Last night i took a paracetamol before sleeping and woke up sweating to realize that there are all these bugs crawling over me, trying to eat me alive. Woke up again to feel that it was just a dream.
Had another dream of being in high school and getting caught smoking a joint in class. Feeling angry that i was impatient and arrogant and that i couldnt wait to leave class to smoke. The teacher tells me that i'm a bad influence on everyone and tells me to get out. Walk outside to meet an old childhood friend. In real life he's become part of a thug gang and goes around beating people but in my dream he was a teenager like me and we were having a good time. Walked out of the school building to see a lot of trees in the football field which they had cut down. I loved those trees, it was like my mini forest.
Woke up to eat and take my medicines and went back to sleep.
I was with a girl in bed. She kept holding on to me as if she loved me. Reminded me of an old lover of mine. There was nothing else there, just me and her. Lightness by death cab was playing. We were kissing, but not sexually, more out of love, more out of sadness. There was a sense of sadness between me and her.