Right before going to sleep i meditated , focusing on my top chakra. I could feel this surge of electricity rushing through the top of my head and going down till the base of my spine. It's a strange feeling of pure pleasure and awakening and complete submergence. There are few inhibitions and less fear.
It begins as a slow build up and i can feel all the energy accumulate towards the chakra and then at a good moment everything just rushes down. after some time of this happening, i thought i heard some voices in my room. Initially i thought that my girlfriend had come to bed but i looked around and saw that she wasn't there. As a matter of fact i wasn't even in the same room anymore. I wasn't sure if i was dreaming or not anymore because i didn't know when i had fallen asleep and in my dream i was still meditating when i heard the noise.
The room that i was in right now wasn't very different from my girlfriend's real room, the only difference was that the window was much smaller and there was some faint sunlight coming through the curtains. It was otherwise pretty dark. I also remember feeling that the colors were very muted through all of this. On the floor i saw some people sitting and trying to make some sort of food. I knew that they were strangers to me and there was a lot of salad lying around and they were cutting fruits and i could smell lemon around me. I was very confused as to what was happening and i really wanted to know if i was dreaming or it was something else. It seemed too vivid for it to be a dream. I decided to walk out of the room and then maybe see what is happening.
All of a sudden i was awake again and i realized that i had actually slept off on the couch in the living room and my girlfriend came and woke me up. In my state of sleep and confusion i didn't understand what happened. In fact within my dream i had an experience of meditation and within that i think i fell into another dream.
Now, this is where it gets interesting.
As i went to bed in reality i felt the same surge happening through my head and i was in a state of exhaustion so i didn't think about anything, i just let myself fall into this strange night. This is where another dream began.
I was in a large room with a lot of people standing in front of me, mostly women who were dressed in complete black and they were all standing there and crying. They were all looking at me and crying. And i could feel their sadness seep into me and i felt this overbearing emotion surround me and i wanted to cry as well but i haven't cried in years and i didn't want to do it in front of strangers. I was scared and confused and don't know why they were looking at me and crying. After a while i saw that they weren't crying for me. I was standing in front of another woman dressed in black and she was holding her dead baby. Everything was so lifeless, her expression, the baby, everything. I felt so sad. I can't even describe how sad i felt. It was as if i saw my own nephew dying and i can't bear to think of anything happening to him. He's like the light in my life and i ran out of the room and in a corridor where i saw an old man standing and smoking a cigarette. I remember wanting to cry but the tears didn't come so i was in a strange position of being sad and angry at the same time. I saw that the old man looked a lot like a friend of mine who is a tibetan monk. He had the same features as him.
The old man came up to me with a bowl of some food all of a sudden and it seemed like the same bowl in my previous dream where there were people in my room who were cutting salad. I had a strange feeling that there was something wrong with this bowl and that i shouldn't look inside it. He convinced me to look into it and i saw cut up fingers and toes and eye balls and a tongue right in the centre. It was all decorated and seasoned and ready to be eaten.