Morning of January 4, 2015. Sunday.
Actually, it is not totally accurate or attentive to describe this lifelong recurring dream feature as a “half-door” as it is more often like a “three-fourths door” or even a “six-sevenths door”, but I have written on this dream feature in older entries and had given it the name of “half-door” as a child. I just had a new version of this recurring dream feature even though the last clearer one was probably in 1978 in Cubitis, though I have had more recent dreams of attempting to keep the door closed against a threat.
In this dream, it is a solid wooden door (rather than the typical jalousie-windowed door) that does not fully fit the doorway when closed at our present address on W Street (however, this door is cracked in reality in the top left panel though that attribute is not noticed or considered in my dream). It is the door that goes out to the front porch from our living room. I soon sense that there are devious people in the street (though I do not see them at any point) that may impose or possibly have intent to burglarize our house. However, this potentially dangerous scenario does not happen even though I continue to have issues with the door for several minutes. In this case, it is probably a “four-fifths door” within the doorway and I try to make the door “fit” as I close it, but to no avail. I cannot seem to “stretch” the wooden door far enough over to reach the latch on the left side (using in-dream faux logic in expecting the door to be malleable), in my non-lucid dream state. Still, I am not confronted or attacked at any point and no one actually comes onto the porch.
This type of dream situation has at least three possible explanations. A likely one (in general), due to the fact that doors represent shifts in consciousness or memory recall while sleeping, is that it simply represents the waking process or the “intrusion” of the conscious awareness dissolving a dream setting when the (typically non-lucid) dream-self wants to remain in the dream (possibly even relative to the completion of an ongoing cellular process or other physical process before fully waking). This is a meaning that I had fully validated in the 1980s in certain cases. However, a situation like this is also potentially literal (and may be precognitive). A third possibility relates to an attempt at controlling one’s temper if it is otherwise problematic to one’s well-being. I have had a number of dreams over my lifetime where the door did not completely cover the doorway or reach the latch to keep it closed, which possibly represents the particular state of consciousness between waking and sleeping during the waking process.
