i was on a long road and walking. it was in the middle of some desert. there was nothing or no one around. it was night and a bit cold. i was smoking a cigarette. i don't know why i was walking or where i was going but i knew i had to get somewhere.
after a short period of meeting no one i came across people i have known over the years and are close to me. none of them seemed to acknowledge my presence but continued doing what they were doing.
the first friend i met was sitting in the middle of the road and writing. he shut the notebook after a while and began meditating.
next i came across a friend who was sitting on the hood of his car and was smoking and staring at the sky.
next i came across a friend who was drunk and trying to talk to his ex girlfriend who wasn't listening to him at all. he was desperately pleading her but she didn't respond at all.
the next was a friend dressed in a suit, talking to another guy in a suit who seemed to be someone important. he seemed to be sucking up to him and telling him how pretty he looks in his suit which is more expensive than his. he was talking to this guy as if trying to hit on a girl.
i came across many more people while i continued walking and all seemed to be doing something that in a way i think has defined them for me - at least subconsciously.
at the end of the long walk i came across a city which was deserted. it looked like something out of a fantasy landscape. kind of like naboo from star wars. big high building, integrated and designed to work around nature.
i stopped and came across a pond that leads into a river. there was a boat tied at the pier. i sat next to the boat for a long time contemplating weather to take the boat and cross the river and go on to the other side. i could really see what was there on the other side but i knew i had to leave for better or for worse. after a long time of just sitting and thinking i got up and starting to untie the boat. i remember feeling a great deal of sadness and remorse.
the water looked calm at the beginning but after a point there was a sort of whirlpool in the center. yet i knew i had to leave.
just as i about to get onto the boat, a friend who hasn't been talking to me for a while because of somethings i said to her, called me out of the blue and assured me everything is going to be ok.
i stood on the pier and still contemplating if i should leave or not.