I am camping with my lover and my best friend. We walk together with our eyes opened and feel the world awaken to our feeble footsteps. We sit at the small shore of fresh water, and smile back at the stars. The moon as always, is full. My friend takes his usual walk. I watch him marvel at his world and feel comforted about what he has chosen for his future. I know he's scared, but I also know it's what he wants. I'm scared for my future, too. Through this I feel stronger.
I walk with Stephen to the warming fire. The talks of the universe precede and I am reminded of how I am so thankful for such a partner. Our talks of life and the hidden world are not only voiced, but these worlds are simultaneously created. John returns and we smile, all three. The questions of why the world can't be like this always, comes up, and I say maybe it always is.
I retreat to the dream vessel, and light candles and incense and relax on the pillows and blankets my former self brought. I watch them from the tent. I draw them from the tent. Their outlines and the fire flow from my pen. I draw a sunflower and tell them we all live in one. I draw arrows on another sheet, one up, one down. I tell them we are in our happy medium. I wonder if they think the tent is talking to them.
I feel the sun coming. I walk into the forest alone. I smile at the trees. I feel the dirt on my bare feet. I hear them without knowing it. I dance alone to music I created. I look around at pure beauty. I sit in silence and just listen to my breath. I go towards a facility holding an archaic restroom (a hole in the ground). My first and only feeling of fear hits me. I choose not to venture in. I instead walk around the place, and decide to be all natural. That's when I hear the giggling. After I'm done they start telling me how much they love me. They tell me not to worry. They tell me how much they love all of humanity. How they love watching us grow and watching us create. They say even the young ones have seen our many many civilizations, they've seen this through their earthly connections. I am at awe.
The trees were speaking to me! I walk down and around winding through their energies. I somehow can't stop wanting to be near as many as I can. Meeting each one, although their voices are almost collective, I still felt each one's energy.
Guardians somehow chose to relay this information to me. I question them. I ask why we do bad. They tell me our flaws are our perfection. They tell me they love me some more, how they love how small and fragile we are. We are their children. They tell me how small I am in this universe, how special I & humanity are. They send more love and tell me to tell my friends.
I dance, skip, fly back. My tears are running. John is off exploring again. I run into Stephen's and hug him. I tell him through gasps that I have been enlightened. Why me? Why now? I'm crying and awe struck. I feel so much love. John comes back and I hug him and he tells me to stop crying. I tell him they're tears of joy. I do as the trees say and tell them everything.
The sun wakes.
We walk back to shore and watch it rise on the opposite side of where we watched it set. I walk into the water. I tell them that wherever life takes us, this is our home for a reason. I tell them it always will be. I tell them it is perfect, they're perfect, our realities are perfectly flawed.
I return to my former self.
I have been above and been down,
come here and gone there, again and again,
but never have I felt the way as I did then.
Never have I thought I was more than just on my own.
I'm doing my part, and telling you,
because you should know you're loved and not alone.